It’s been awhile since I’ve posted on the blog, and an even longer time since I’ve actually written up a post. It’s currently 11:11pm, and I decided to write this discussion on a whim. It’s one I’ve been thinking about for awhile now, and I think that I’m writing this discussion both for myself, and for other people to know that it’s okay to take some time for yourself.
I’ve been having a rough time personally for about two months now. Usually when I’m depressed, I throw myself into my hobbies, whether it be reading or writing or blogging. But this time it was different. I just wanted to do nothing all day, and I had zero desire to work on blog posts.
I counted down the days until my scheduled posts ran out, but I didn’t write anything new. And once the posts ran out, I still did nothing.
The stress of blogging did absolutely nothing to help my depression. It was just another weight on my shoulders, along with the schoolwork that was piling up because of my absences. The obvious solution to the problem would be to write up a post and fix it, right?
Wrong. I didn’t want to do anything. I didn’t even want to get out of bed, much less format a post and write a review and take a title picture and edit it in photoshop….the list goes on and on. For weeks, this was like a dark cloud hanging over me. I love blogging, I really do–I’ve met some amazing people and learned about some equally amazing books. This blogging slump really killed my mood, and I hated it.
But then, I realized something. Something really damn important that I think a lot of people need to hear.
Lots of bloggers deal with personal issues that can get in the way of blogging. Life has a funny way of throwing a wrench in your plans every now and then, and that’s what happened to me when I got depressed when I was at my peak as a blogger. I thought that I had to be this perfect blogger who always had posts ready and was always on twitter and was always reading books and writing reviews.
But the thing is, there’s no such thing as a perfect blogger, and you shouldn’t feel guilty for taking time away from your blog and focusing on yourself. It’s okay if you don’t have a post scheduled for a week, or two weeks, or even months. Your worth as a blogger shouldn’t be measured by the amount of posts you have, or the time you spend on social media, or how many books you read in a month. Sometimes you need to take a break, and that’s completely okay.
As much as it seems like it sometimes, your blog isn’t the end all, be all of your life, I promise. It’ll still be there for you when you come back from your break. Sure, your stats might be low–mine are, but do I care? Heck no. I haven’t looked at my stats in a month and it’s felt so nice to not have to worry about them. Some bloggers make a post if they’re going on a hiatus, but I didn’t make one when I was gone for over a week.
It was a weight off my shoulders when I didn’t have to worry about blogging while I was getting back int he swing of things. I’m slowly getting better and taking my depression one day at a time, and I feel like I can handle blogging now. But if I happen to change my mind, if I can’t handle blogging again, I’m going right back on hiatus. Because it’s okay to take a break to focus on yourself. I promise that your followers and your friends will understand.
This discussion isn’t my best one, no, but I feel like it has one of the most important messages: It’s okay to take time for yourself away from blogging. You come first, no matter what, and it’ll make you feel so much freer. Take care of yourself and remember it’s okay to take a break. You deserve it.